December 2009
I Am but A Love Artist
trapped by shadows but unprotected run away from this beat undetected patience wears like life near death Respect holding on for the final breath I’ll keep inside the red waiting to leak An artist’s muse bleeding the red he seeks Color to life, for black is for the dead I am but a love artist, waiting to show red
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This was written by me… I like to...
Im sick of guys acting like they like me...
laurenemilyy:
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and then just wanting to use me…i’ve put up this wall with guys but i haven’t….i can see thru their smooth talk but i still let myself fall for that shit because of the attention. The attention i think is what’s nice because attention is better than loneliness…even if the attention is bottom of the barrel.
If it helps, It’s the same for me, except...
Im sick of guys acting like they like me...
laurenemilyy:
and then just wanting to use me…i’ve put up this wall with guys but i haven’t….i can see thru their smooth talk but i still let myself fall for that shit because of the attention. The attention i think is what’s nice because attention is better than loneliness…even if the attention is bottom of the barrel.
If it helps, It’s the same for me, except girls using me…
The holidays were not meant for those who are...
Ad's for meeting singles....
Just makes me feel worse.
I'm going to bed. I need to stop thinking. It's...
And it’s all because of not having a significant other.
Shallow people and liars
Stop following me. I have no need to deal with fakes and ignorance. I’m tired of that bullshit.
bye.
Some people say life is beautiful. It's not that...
my life is on fire and hanging on by a thread....
I walk and breath in this place called...
Someone once told me they wanted to see all that...
Apparently I’m a very fascinating person. They said “You can be the sweetest guy but write poetry about darkness. You can be a serious asshole but write about love. You see elegance and beauty in everyday situation that we take for granted. You play a normal person in life but your mind plays a warped artist with love and hate. I don’t think anyone could every truly understand...
Lie to yourself. Tell yourself It's okay
…Even if it’s not…
Gone Up in Smoke
Twisting, turning, whirling, spinning, Changing, elegance, dancing, vanish Gone up in smoke.
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by: Human-Defect (Chad)
It's 4:20 guys!
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LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Ha you’re always smokin’. that’s why...
It's 4:20 guys!
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LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Ha you’re always smokin’. that’s why you’re my imaginary best friend
...
It's 4:20 guys!
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LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Ha you’re always smokin’. that’s why you’re my imaginary best friend
How am I imaginary. I’m real! lol....
It's 4:20 guys!
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LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Ha you’re always smokin’. that’s why you’re my imaginary best friend
How am I imaginary. I’m real! lol. And I’m not always smoking. I just...
It's 4:20 guys!
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LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Ha you’re always smokin’. that’s why you’re my imaginary best friend
How am I imaginary. I’m real! lol. And I’m not always smoking. I just happen to be on tumblr the same...
It's 4:20 guys!
cupcakesxlyssa:
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LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Ha you’re always smokin’. that’s why you’re my imaginary best friend
How am I imaginary. I’m real! lol. And I’m not always smoking. I just happen to be on tumblr the same time I am. :D
Ha I meann you’re...
It's 4:20 guys!
cupcakesxlyssa:
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a.m
LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Ha you’re always smokin’. that’s why you’re my imaginary best friend
How am I imaginary. I’m real! lol. And I’m not always smoking. I just happen to be on tumblr the same time I am. :D
Ha I meann you’re not really my best friend, but you...
It's 4:20 guys!
cupcakesxlyssa:
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a.m
LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Ha you’re always smokin’. that’s why you’re my imaginary best friend
How am I imaginary. I’m real! lol. And I’m not always smoking. I just happen to be on tumblr the same time I am. :D
It's 4:20 guys!
cupcakesxlyssa:
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LOLOLOLOL
I’m already ahead of the game. I’m smoking now. lol
Only A Year or So....
I want you to come home. I’m tired of being alone. And it’s making me sick not knowing if you’re safe and alright The kids are growing up so fast. And knowing you’re missing them. And they’re missing you, has given me a pain so deep inside. Something from this world cant explore. Lately I feel like I’ve been becoming someone else. Someone I don’t...
So tomorrow I'm heading back to visit my family...
I don't care if you hate me because I'm some white...
cupcakesxlyssa:
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Just don’t hate me because of things you don’t know are true.
Thank you! I say this shit all the time.
Never seems to get throw does it.
Nope, never. It normally all starts with the drugs for me. Then they just assume things. People suck sometimes. lol
Pretty much suck...
rhaasta:
my brother got me 2 grams of pure hash. fucking love him
WWWHHHHAATT!? I wish my bro was like that. I slept through 4:20 but I’m about to smoke right now. You should light up with me. haha.
I don't care if you hate me because I'm some white...
cupcakesxlyssa:
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Just don’t hate me because of things you don’t know are true.
Thank you! I say this shit all the time.
Never seems to get throw does it.
Nope, never. It normally all starts with the drugs for me. Then they just assume things. People suck sometimes. lol
Pretty much suck all the time. Of course it’s worse...
I don't care if you hate me because I'm some white...
cupcakesxlyssa:
human-defect:
cupcakesxlyssa:
Just don’t hate me because of things you don’t know are true.
Thank you! I say this shit all the time.
Never seems to get throw does it.
Nope, never. It normally all starts with the drugs for me. Then they just assume things. People suck sometimes. lol
I don't care if you hate me because I'm some white...
cupcakesxlyssa:
Just don’t hate me because of things you don’t know are true.
Thank you! I say this shit all the time.
You tell yourself you'll never drink again. Six...